Nobody knows the price of this dream

I have learned that blogging soothes me. It makes me realize things and gets it out of my system. It's a form of therapy that keeps me sane. With that being said, I apologize for this downer post of mine. But as Shrek says, "Always better out, than in."

This song has helped me get through the week. Maybe it will help you get through this post  :)

I've had a self inflicted rough week. Emotionally it's been a tough one. I'm usually really good at shaking things off and moving forward. I don't like to dwell on things that bring me down. But every once in awhile it catches up with me and hits me hard in the face. It's usually a really random thing that triggers all these emotions to come out at once. That thing makes me realize everything I'm disappointed with in my life. Just to see how pathetic I am this is what started my semi depressed mode. Wednesday night I watched Soul Surfer like I mentioned in my other post. It basically made me jealous that...

1) I don't live by a beach hence I'm not an awesome surfer

2) I'm not as tan and as beautiful as those girls are

3) I don't think I would have the attitude, faith, and determination after losing an arm

4) I'm not doing the things I'm truly great at that make me happy.

I basically want to be things I'm not and I try to constantly remind myself that I'm my own person. My unique qualities is what makes me....ME. But hey, what girl doesn't wish they were completely perfect and flawless at least once in their life. It's something that is often strive for, but never accomplished. Perfect doesn't exist. It doesn't have a definition. But this is me trying to be the best I can be...

I am Juelaine Kahilipulu Noa.

I am a strong, independent young woman. 

I have issues. BUT I still love myself, regardless.

I work 8 hours a day, 6 days a week for $7.25 at Burger King. BUT I still work hard and try to be kind to others.

I may not be a model. BUT I am beautiful in my own way.

I might feel alone sometimes, BUT I know my Heavenly Father is always there for me.

I am my own person. 

I have my ups and my downs, but something always reminds me of all the things I have to be thankful for. I really am truly blessed.