Sanity

Today has been rough. I'm just in one of those annoying moods where nothing can be right. This consists of me not wanting to be/talk to anyone. I'm perfectly content being by myself listening to music and just thinking about things. Yes, it sound emo, but I think it's quite a healthy way to deal with it. I figure I get like this because of my long term lack of sleep. But it gives me time to reflect on what I want to do with my life. I failed my EMT test for the 2nd time. I tend to fail a lot of tests I study really hard for. Which totally sucks because I spend so much time studying. So today, that is what got me the mood. 

Tiffany took me to Craigos so I could eat my feelings. She always seems to get me to feel better about life. Then she went to work. I got a bit bored of being in my room so I usually have 2 places I go to when I'm in this kind of mood. I'll run to the temple and kind of just chill there because it's the most amazingly beautiful building around, or if the sun is setting I'll ride my bike to the trains. It's a bunch of oil rigs that aren't in use anymore. There's a random pond, lake thing by them. So when the sun is setting it is so pretty. It reflects in the water and just looks amazing. I just sit on top of the train and watch the sunset until it gets dark. It calms me down and puts things into prospective for me. It just reminds me that there is so much more to the world than my problems. That there is always a way through things and a way to figure things out. When I was little I would always want a secret hide away where I could go. Where my best friends and I would have our secret meetings in the middle of the night like they do in movies. Well now I have finally found a place similar to that.   It's quite comforting.

These pictures doesn't do it justice. It's something to see in person. But it's what I got so we are just going to have to deal with it.

AAANNDD I'm sorry I'm obsessed with music, but I have to share my favorites of the day.
Windsor Drive, Bridges has gotten me through this day

Also,

My friend Obri wrote this song and I think it is beyond amazing. So I thought I would share her amazing talent with you all. And because I love her so much!

enjoy the blissful sounds.